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Sorry.

I'm sorry. For all my mistakes. I don't know what to say, but... I'm terribly sorry. Sorry for making you angry. Sorry for making you disappointed. Sorry for... everything. I know it's all my fault, right? My mistakes. And you get angry to me just because I don't apologize to you all. But it's okay if you're not wanna be my friend again. It's okay, I'll understand. It needs time till I accustomed to the loneliness. Without you.

It's not mean that I don't wanna be your friend anymore. Otherwise, I still wanna be your friend but--

But I think our friendship won't be same like before. I'm sorry, that's my opinion. I know you're not thinking like that.

Once again, I'm sorry. Terribly sorry. Forgive me.

Thanks.

-Kai

5 questions, 1 paragraph

#nw Power Rangers Lost Galaxy Episode 19: The Lost Galactabeasts Part 1 haha :D


Today is a best-but-with-a-bit-mellow day, for me. Well, today in Journalist extra curricular we have to answer a few questions from our teacher, like:

1. What do you feel now? Write in max. 5 words.
2. What do you want to do now?
3. Do you feel like born again after the Ied?
4. Write 3 people who you want them there at your side.
5. If you could meet them, what do you want to say to them?
6. Write 1 or 2 paragraphs based on all your answers before.

And I wrote:

1. I feel... yeah, full of spirit.
2. Write and write.
3. Yes, I am.
4. (it's quite difficult for me. Really.) 1) Aiz, 2) Widya nee-chan, and 3) My grandfather.
5. For Aiz: I miss you. Do you miss me too? Don't angry to me anymore; I never wanted both of us being enemy, you know? For Widya nee-chan: Sis, I miss you! When do you graduate? I have maaaanyyyy projects to be discuss! For my grandfather: Grandpa... I miss you so much. I... I don't know what to say since the twist of fate when it all broke down. The important thing is, I really proud being your granddaughter and I'm proud for having grandpa like you :)
6. Now I feel full of spirit. And I want to write... yeah, write anything, such as short stories or fanfiction. I don't know why I couldn't feel it, but I'm sure that I was born into a new person after the Ied. For now, I really wanted these people to be at my side: Aiz, Widya nee-chan, and my grandpa. It's a quite simple reason: I miss them. I miss Aiz, he is my best friend. We got an argument a few weeks ago, but everything is okay now. We are back to normal again. And as I say, I never wanted both of us to being an enemy. Widya nee-chan... I miss her very much. She is like my own sister in writing world. She is a college student in Japan now. Unfortunately she back to Indonesia just once in a year.  And I just meet her once too :( my grandpa... he's dead about 2 years ago and I was so proud being his granddaughter, because I was found that my grandpa is a popular person and very inspired me to being someone like him. An active person and knowing by a lot people, includes the important person, like the president! (I'm not lying; my grandfather got a certificate for a thing-I-don't-know from President Suharto. I was SO PROUD :'))

And that's all my answers. I cried a bit :')

My teacher said that is was the easiest way to write a simple paragraph. He's right!

The Journal [raw version]

The Journal

Rate: T

Genre: General

Chara: England

Disclaimer: Hetalia belongs to Hidekaz Himaruya

Summary: For IHAFest September. Seorang pemimpin tak mesti sempurna. Kadang dengan keterbatasannya, seorang pemimpin bisa menerakan sejarah yang akan selalu dikenang. Historical. Alur maju-mundur.

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Pintu gudang terbuka, memberikan ruangan gelap itu seleret cahaya matahari. Arthur Kirkland berdiri di depan pintu, memandang gudang berdebu itu dengan ekspresi enggan. Sebelah tangannya memegang kain lap dan sebelah tangannya memegang pembersih debu dari bulu ayam.

Oke, sebenarnya ia hari ini ada acara dengan Alfred, tapi si maniak hamburger sialan itu mendadak membatalkan acara itu, dan tentu saja membuat Arthur sempat marah-marah. Daripada hanya berdiam diri di rumah, mending ia mengerjakan sesuatu—bersih-bersih rumah, yang sebetulnya jarang sekali ia lakukan.

Arthur mengernyit, berusaha mengingat-ingat kapan terakhir kalinya ia membersihkan tempat itu. Debu setebal satu atau dua senti menutupi semua benda di situ. Menghela napas, ia pun mulai membersihkan gudang dan sekalian memilah-milah barang. Mungkin saja ada barang yang masih bisa dipakai. Berkali-kali Arthur mengucek-ucek mata atau terbatuk jika debu yang beterbangan itu masuk ke mata atau mulutnya.

Mean.

You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me; you, have knocked me off my feet again, got me feeling like a nothing. You, with your voice like nails on the chalkboard calling me out when I wounded; you, picking on the weaker man.

You can take me down, with just one single blow. But you don't know, what you don't know: someday, I'll be living in a big ole city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean. Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me, and all you're ever gonna be is mean. Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your switching sides and your wildfire lies and your humiliation. You, have pointed out my flaws again, as if I don't already see them. I walk with my head down, trying to block you out cause I'll never impress you. I just wanna feel okay again. I bet you get pushed around, somebody made you cold. But the cycle ends right now cause you can't lead me down that road.

And you don't know what you don't know: someday, I'll be living in a big ole city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean. Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me, and all you're ever gonna be is mean. Why you gotta be so mean?

And I can see you years from now in a bar, talking over a football game. With that same big loud opinion but, nobody's listening. Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things: drunk and grumbling on about how I can't sing. But all you are is mean. All you are is mean. And a liar, and pathetic, and alone in life. And mean, and mean, and mean...

But someday, I'll be living in a big ole city. And all you're ever gonna be is mean, yeah! Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me, and all you're ever gonna be is mean. Why you gotta be so mean? Someday, I'll be living in a big ole city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean. Why you gotta be so mean? Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me, and all you're ever gonna be is mean.

Why you gotta be so mean?

Bloody hell.

...........................................British words, aren't they? #slapped

Well, then. I don't know why, but I was veeeeerrrryyyy bad mood these days. Because of that, let me be a berserker right now.

I'm stupid. I'm idiot! Well, and I don't have friends too. Sorry. I mean, a friend who can be a real friend. Not just a bloody friend that leave me later.

.........................................baka. (means stupid in Japanese.)

Okay, I'm truly stupid! Bloody hell. For some reason, I want to be like Harry. He is quite same like me. Harry Potter, of course. Have you see Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire, when he has a conflict with his best friend Ron? Okay, I feel same like him. I feel alone, and then... wellidonthavesomeonetobetalkedto. I wish I can have a friend who could understand me.

I know I was bloody fault. This is my fault! Welltheniwassofaultsoidonthavefriends. So don't judge me; I was full of anger from people around me, like my friends, my sisters, even my parents. I'm alone, and I received that fact.

I

WAS

VERY

VERY

VERY

ALONE.

Bloody hell. For the sake of England's eyebrows.

Thanks Taylor Swift, for wrote many sad songs. Now I can play it whenever I like.

You don't have to come, anymore. I won't pick up the phone, this is the last.

(I love that line.)

And I have soooooo many homeworks to do! Shit.

Bye. Going to do hw right now.

First and last meet.

ENGLISH EDITION HAHA :D Warning: broken grammar and Taylor Swift gif orz -_-

I have a friend who currently live in Qatar. For one month, she back to Indonesia for summer holiday. When I heard that she back to Indonesia, I was like:

During her holiday in Indonesia, I just contact her via Twitter. Why? Because yeah, I don't know her number phone in Indonesia orz #hitme

Then I'm contact her via Twitter and ask "Hey, do you have Indonesian phone number?" She have it, of course, and give me her number.

I messaged her and guess what... she replied it three years days later. Haha but it's okay than she doesn't replied it. Well, when I texting her she always replied it in a looong time.

One day, my friend in school told me that she'll come to my school. But in the ES building. Then I ran to the building (it's fasting day, fyi) and SHE DOESN'T COME. My friend told me a few days later than in that day she cancelled our meeting zzzz -_-

And I was like:

Okay fine haha so we contacting again via Twitter and messages. And I was envyyyy because a few of my friends have meet her. Me? Not hmmmm.

In her last days in Indonesia, I was thought oh-my-god-it's-her-last-day-in-Indonesia-and-if-I-don't-meet-her-I'll-be-a-girl-who-don't-met-her-during-her-holiday-in-here.

Luckily she in her home, yeah! So I and my family went there and OMG FINALLY I MET HER :OOOO

Guess what?

I'm TALLER than her.

A long ago before I met her, I was thought that she-must-be-taller-than-me-or-we-share-same-height. But yeah, that's fact, mate. OMG I WAS FLYIIIIIIING~~~ #wtf

Then I entered her bedroom. We sat on her bed and she asked me, "What is your cellphone?"

"Sony Ericsson," I answered. "And what's yours?"

Guess what she answer...

"iPhone."

OMG OMG OMG SHE HAD AN IPHONE AWEEESOOOOMEEEEE!!

I was like:

"OMG CAN I SEE IT?"

She gave me the iPhone and guess what...

THAT IS THE FIRST TIME I HOLD AN IPHONE, AND THE IPHONE WAS IPHONE 4 OMG XDD

.....................okeakukampungan #indonesianalert

So all I did in her home was played the iPhone and talking about everything: about her live in Qatar, my live in Indonesia, music, artists, books, photos and etc and when I was watched her photos on her iPhone I found her photos when she went to Europe hmmmmmm -_-

She borrowed my phone too. And my-phone-is-nothing-than-iPhone. My phone was Sony Ericsson W150i. Go Google for it if ydk.

She'll went to airport by 5 PM and I'll picked by my father by 4 and 30 PM. HAHAHAHAHA I was the last of her friend who met her before her!

We took some pictures. Well, I can't post it here because all the photos was on her phone and the Bluetooth on her iPhone was so slow~

And then I have to go home. OHMAAAAAAAI IT'S TIME TO SAY GOODBYE AAAAA D8

In my head I was like:

I just met her and we'll met one year later orz :o

So, this is our first and last meet hoho.

Goodbye, Talitha Chairina Rahmah. I'll miss you, mate! :*

(this is her. She likes photography, just like me! :D)

Lots of love from Indonesia, from Kania Manika Paramahita :D

P.S.: Btw, there is Indonesia vs Qatar in................ I forget. #hitme Who will you support, hm?

Bakeneko

Halo.

Saya udah lama nggak ngepost hmmm. Soalnya nggak tau mau nulis apa di blog ini orz -____-

Tapi sudahlah, sekarang saya mau bagi-bagi ilmu perdukunan dan santet yang sepertinya terkesan tidak penting. Well, belakangan ini TL saya di Twitter dipenuhi kucing. Bukan, bukan dipenuhi kucing yang nge-tweet--saya saja tak pernah mimpi ada kucing bisa nge-tweet hoho. Bukan itu, tapi avatar following saya di Twitter banyak banget yang pakai gambar kucing. FYI, kucing dalam bahasa Jepang disebut neko.

Dan gambar kucingnya mirip... jadilah saya nanya, bikin gambar begituan di manaaaaaaa. Alhamdulillah ada yang jawab, yihaa! Oke, saya nyoba. Dan OH-MY-GOD-IT'S-SO-SIMPLE-AND-AWESOME AAAAAA xDDD

Bagi yang mau mencoba bikin bakeneko, bisa dibuka di sini.

Begini tampilan site-nya begitu dibuka:

Itu gambar default-nya, bisa diganti-ganti sesuai selera kalian kok. Mulai dari bentuk wajah, pola warna, bentuk telinga, mata, kumis, mulut, aksesoris, dan bisa ditambah gambar sendiri hoho~

Di tab "save", dikasih pilihan, mau versi JPG atau PNG. Saran saya sih, bagusan JPG.

Tadi saya udah ngotak-atik sedikit dan bikin bakeneko seperti ini:

KAWAAAAIIII HAHA

Awalnya mau bikin background dengan gambar bendera Austria seperti RP saya di #hetacrew, tapi bikinnya susah hmmm -____-"

Happy making! xD